We Are Undeserving Of What We Think We Deserve

This might be the most open and honest blog post I have ever written. So, congratulations to you, who gets the privilege of reading some of my more personal writings.

I have always struggled with discontentment. I look forwards to going to a party, but when my siblings get sick and I am unable to, I feel discontent. When I hear about, or see a person being a good friend, I feel discontent that I don’t have such good friends.

I can very honestly say, much to my shame, that this is something I still struggle with. And let me tell you; it poisons you.

To be discontent, is to be thankless for what you do have.

Instead of looking around myself and thinking, “Wow, I am so blessed to have so many wonderful friends and to actually have people invite me out,” I think, “Why did my siblings have to get sick? Why can’t I have friends like that? Why is my life so awful?”

Like I said. Discontentment is a poison which we let ourselves partake of. In fact, a lot of the times, we’d rather be discontent, than try to be content and happy with what we do have. When we are discontent, we feel lower than other people and all of a sudden, we seem to have an excuse for whining and complaining.

But something I have been realizing, is Discontentment is just another sin. In fact, it’s a really, very immature sin, in my opinion. Because just look around! God has made and given us SO many things!!! And yet, we STILL find ways in which to be ungrateful and wishful for more.

Now, don’t get me wrong – there isn’t anything at all wrong with wishing and dreaming for things…In fact, I think dreaming of things is a lovely past-time and something which everyone ought to partake in. But there is a difference between wishful dreaming and pitied-dreaming. The first – wishful dreaming – is just when we dream of lovely things and wish, in a contented sort of way, for them. We don’t whine about wanting it…we merely wish. The latter, though – pitied-dreaming – is when we take self-pity upon ourselves and we dream of what we don’t have. This sort of dreaming is not at all like Wishful Dreaming. No, Pitied Dreaming is when you wish and you whine and you very discontentedly, dream of what you have not. Not only does this sort of dreaming make you ungrateful, but it creates so much more self-pity for yourself mount up, until all you can do, is feel sorry for yourself.

The way that I see it, is that self pity, is, truly, a root of pride. For, when we take pity upon ourselves, then we are automatically assuming we deserve better than we have.

Romans 12:3 says:

“For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you.”

Honestly, none of us deserve anything. NOTHING!! We literally are entirely undeserving of every goodness this world has to offer. God is the One who deserves everything and yet here we are; being discontented. And why are we discontented? Because:

We think we deserve more than what God has provided us.

And it’s as simple as that. Nothing more, nothing less. We are discontented human beings, because we feel like God’s plan is not right for us. We feel like we have a better idea and that we deserve to have our lives better off.

I can’t even begin to tell y’all, no matter how idiotic Discontentment seems after all I’ve just said, I DO struggle with this!! It’s a constant battle I have, waging within myself.

But something I have recently been realizing, is this:

No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.”

– 1 Corinthians 10:13

So, even though Discontentment is something I struggle with, I can take comfort in the fact that God knows I am tempted with it and He knows I can handle it. God knows that being discontent is a temptation that, with His help, I CAN overcome! And that is an amazing, wonderfully encouraging thought, is it not?

Well, friends…I hope you liked all this that I wrote. I really felt like God wanted me to write this for y’all. That being said, let’s take faith and hope in GOD’S plans, and not our own. Let’s learn to be content in what God HAS given, and not what we don’t have.

Carpe Diem!

-Keziah ❤