I had been feeling sort of depressed, one day.
You know how sometimes you just wake up in the morning, feeling gloomy? They call it waking up on “the wrong side of the bed”… That’s how it was for me. Except, a lot heavier. It all felt dark and depressing and I felt a heavy weight, pressing upon me.
I confided in my best friend about it. He tried to be optimistic; to lift my spirits. But I couldn’t take it. I didn’t want to choose to be happy………………….
I’m usually a very bubbly, optimistic and laughter-filled person. But when I get depressed…It hits me very hard and I have a really rough time.
This day was no different and the day seemed to only be getting worse…
In desperation, I went into my room and just cried……………..
I don’t cry a lot. At least, I didn’t use to. I’ve been really good at stuffing things, and not letting myself feel pain. Which led me to believe that I was less emotional than a lot of people….
But I’m really not. I just held it off for so long and made myself not feel the pain, and not cry. And the more I’ve realized that, the more I have realized that it’s actually GOOD to cry! It’s good to let your pain out that way.
Anyways. Back to where I was.
I cried and cried, in my room. I also prayed a lot and I got out my Bible and went through some of it…
And all of a sudden, I just realized.
I should want what God wants.
I should care less about what I, little old me – just Keziah; wants….And instead, look at what has happened and take it as a part of God’s plan. And EMBRACE it!!
If I want to be a follower of God, I need to strive to BE like Him. And a perfect way to do that, is to start off, desiring what He wants.
You might be going through a really rough time, right now. You might be living the dream and your life is amazing…
Either way. You need to embrace God’s plan for your life and you need to CHOOSE to desire what HE desires. Want what God wants!! Because it’s the most beautiful, best plan for you EVER! Better and more horrible and far beyond what you could imagine.
So, embrace it.
Want what He wants.