Want What He Wants.

I had been feeling sort of depressed, one day.

You know how sometimes you just wake up in the morning, feeling gloomy? They call it waking up on “the wrong side of the bed”… That’s how it was for me. Except, a lot heavier. It all felt dark and depressing and I felt a heavy weight, pressing upon me.

I confided in my best friend about it. He tried to be optimistic; to lift my spirits. But I couldn’t take it. I didn’t want to choose to be happy………………….

I’m usually a very bubbly, optimistic and laughter-filled person. But when I get depressed…It hits me very hard and I have a really rough time.

This day was no different and the day seemed to only be getting worse…

In desperation, I went into my room and just cried……………..

I don’t cry a lot. At least, I didn’t use to. I’ve been really good at stuffing things, and not letting myself feel pain. Which led me to believe that I was less emotional than a lot of people….

But I’m really not. I just held it off for so long and made myself not feel the pain, and not cry. And the more I’ve realized that, the more I have realized that it’s actually GOOD to cry! It’s good to let your pain out that way.

Anyways. Back to where I was.

I cried and cried, in my room. I also prayed a lot and I got out my Bible and went through some of it…

And all of a sudden, I just realized.

I should want what God wants.

I should care less about what I, little old me – just Keziah; wants….And instead, look at what has happened and take it as a part of God’s plan. And EMBRACE it!!

If I want to be a follower of God, I need to strive to BE like Him. And a perfect way to do that, is to start off, desiring what He wants.

So, friend…

You might be going through a really rough time, right now. You might be living the dream and your life is amazing…

Either way. You need to embrace God’s plan for your life and you need to CHOOSE to desire what HE desires. Want what God wants!! Because it’s the most beautiful, best plan for you EVER! Better and more horrible and far beyond what you could imagine.

So, embrace it.

Want what He wants.

Carpe Diem!

-Keziah ❤

26 thoughts on “Want What He Wants.”

  1. Yes, Absolutely! Amen! Keziah, I’m so sorry you’ve felt depressed like this!! I know, sometimes it just is so relieving to let it out! I had a moment like this a while back, and reading this gave me a bit of a puzzle piece into how I should have responded – trust that He knows what He’s doing, and finding joy in the waiting when theres nothing I can do. 💖 Love ya, friend! (Will be getting back to you soon!)

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  2. I’m so sorry you felt depressed and I definitely relate to stuffing tears! ❤️ I sometimes just don’t express sad emotions through tears and sometimes it is definitely good to get them out that way.

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  3. Yes! Great post! It’s so weird how sometimes you can wake up, or sit down after a wonderful day which you enjoyed and you just feel so empty and depressed and you don’t know why. Or that’s how it is for me anyways 🤷🏼‍♀️ Reading the Bible or looking up verses applicable to what you’re feeling helps me immensely!

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